Tomorrow is Mother's Day.
I've been feeling emotional this week leading up to this day. Of course I love my mother and mother-in-law, and am grateful for them, but these emotions go back to something that I've shared here with you before; becoming a mother.
It's been a waiting game for me and my husband, and we are working super hard to make our dreams of having a baby happen soon. I feel like a horrible person when I hear about someone getting pregnant and have feelings of anger and resentment towards them. It's nothing to do with the person they are, I just wish it were me making that announcement. The past few months have been extra difficult as the desire in my heart continues to grow.
I'm preparing myself for tomorrow when I see loads of pictures of smiling mama's and babies /kids, because I know it will be hard. I try not to let my emotions get the best of me, but lately I have. I'm giving in to those tears that are welling up and just letting my heart hurt.
It's something that I feel so alone in, which makes it difficult to talk about with anyone, because everyone has kids and doesn't know the longing that I feel. So I'm just asking for those of you who are mothers, to also remember those who are not mothers tomorrow. Those you want so badly to be and how hard days like this can be.
I've been feeling emotional this week leading up to this day. Of course I love my mother and mother-in-law, and am grateful for them, but these emotions go back to something that I've shared here with you before; becoming a mother.
It's been a waiting game for me and my husband, and we are working super hard to make our dreams of having a baby happen soon. I feel like a horrible person when I hear about someone getting pregnant and have feelings of anger and resentment towards them. It's nothing to do with the person they are, I just wish it were me making that announcement. The past few months have been extra difficult as the desire in my heart continues to grow.
I'm preparing myself for tomorrow when I see loads of pictures of smiling mama's and babies /kids, because I know it will be hard. I try not to let my emotions get the best of me, but lately I have. I'm giving in to those tears that are welling up and just letting my heart hurt.
It's something that I feel so alone in, which makes it difficult to talk about with anyone, because everyone has kids and doesn't know the longing that I feel. So I'm just asking for those of you who are mothers, to also remember those who are not mothers tomorrow. Those you want so badly to be and how hard days like this can be.
